Well Spanked Man

Its past time that I provided an update on this blog. I have logged in to do so several other times. I have spent the past six months seriously ill with food allergies and leaky gut syndrome. In the past when I logged in to post I made the mistake of reading recent comments and so lost my will to put what little energy I had into posting. Its truly a shame certain people left such snarky comments without considering why it might have been that I wasn’t blogging. I suppose it never dawned upon them that I’d spent just three days with a malar rash and horrific intestinal cramping or that I’d recently been flopping around on the floor as gasses leaked from my intestinal walls and I wondered if I were dieing. I guess, rationally, that the last most readers knew I was recovering nicely from my reinjured neck.

I almost deleted this blog after one such failed posting attempt. This project has never been profitable, I’ve spent thousands of hours and dollars on it. There are other projects I have, things I would dearly like to see finished, why should I waste what little time I had feeling well by blogging for wankstains with a misplaced sense of entitlement???

I know that is not most of my readers, but still its really depressing to finally feel well enough to do something only to read how I’m the “seldom spanked man”- you know what, sometimes its been over a month at a time where I’ve been healthy enough that Twilight would spank me. You don’t beat a sick man. I’ve lost over 30 lbs since last summer, not intentionally, I suppose at least that might put an end to “fat” comments.

I am posting now because I intend to finish the membership site. I hate to think how all that effort, perhaps my last major project, could die with me should the worst come to pass. Once its done I hope that it will begin to cover its own expenses, if not I will stop producing videos. The economy is rough and with being so sick the time and money could be better spent elsewhere. But before then I at least want my works to fully see the light of day. I didn’t start this expecting to get rich, but I can’t keep bleeding my wallet and my soul into a project which offers so little in return.

I don’t like to blog my problems. But like I said its past time for an update. I’ve been doing better enough, gotten things more under control, and I feel I might actually be able to move forward, so here I am. I’ve just finished editting a video of Kelly and Darren, too long “in the can”. I’ll try to post some samples from it soon.